A testimony

I grew up as an orphan after my mother died, my father is still alive somewhere but we have no contact, early on I was placed by some relatives but at 12 I was send to work as a maid by a family I didn't know, I don´t think I ever felt a belonging or even really knew who I was.

When I met my husband at 19 it was the first time I ever felt I belonged and had a purpose, but it was always depending on his mood for the day and it could change from heaven to hell in a minute and I would be told how noone cared if I lived or died, how worthless I was that not even my father would know of me and that he was the only one that could stand being around me, he would never get really angry but tell me in a calm voice and then be silent for days, later he would try to tell me how it would be easier if I just was more submissive but he would never tell me what I did wrong or how I should do.

We even went to church but there he got the pastor to believe it was because I was disrespectful and couldn't submit, so the pastor had meetings with us to teach me how to be more submissive to him.

The first violence came when I found out he was cheating, he beat me and told me he would kill meif I tried to leave.

I finally got out because he moved to another woman when I was pregnant and I got in touch with CADA, in the counseling we talked about Christ's relationship to the Father and because of that I am beginning to understand who I am and also what submission really means.

It is still hard but I know God will take me through this and I know He will help you too.

Anonymous.

OBS The post has been edited from names and places for the writer's safety and integrity.